I've seen this place a thousand times
I've felt this all before
And every time you call
I've waited there as though you might not call at all
I know this face
I'm wearing now
I've seen this in my eyes
We've done this once and then you closed the door
Don't let me fall again for nothing more
Don't say you love me unless forever
Don't tell me you need me, if you're not gonna stay
Don't give me this feeling, I'll only believe it
Make it real, or take it all away...
...
Don't you know you're all I have?
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Shaun+Megan
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Why does it seem to get worse and worse...
Why does everything you do seem so insensitive?
I can't answer that question. And neither can you.
Why do these things happen?
They're not supposed to.
I'm tired...
I really want this phase to be over.
I need compromise.
I didn't know it could feel like this
I didn't know the hurt
And I try to explain to myself
But I can't find no word
So I lie about it
And I tell 'em I'm feeling fine
And I'll cry about it
Hoping tomorrow will change my mind
I didn't know it could be like this
I didn't know it could go so far
And I try to reveal the part of me
But you can't find no scar
And I lie about it
And I tell 'em I'm feeling fine
And I cry about it
Hoping tomorrow will change my mind
Happiness, has come to this
And God, it's such a heavy burden to bear...
Friday, July 21, 2006
me&ness- in the new fave colour ;)
attack of the eyes!
somewhere on the mirror it says "NO PHOTOGRAPHY"
_daniel yam_
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:)
me+nessa@tcc
Thursday, July 13, 2006
*shhhhhh*
Sunday, July 09, 2006
It's been such a great weekend. Although I'm really sad now that it's over, but like in his words,
"I don't regret anything about this trip."
We covered lots of ground in just 2 days, and gave him a pretty tiring workout :P sorry dear.
On our first day, he came to my school to surprise me. And... I was surprised!!! Hehe.. then we went back to his hotel to shower n all, then went to cut his hair (i couldnt stand it haha as u can see from the pics. i love the haircut!) and went to City Hall where we shopped and had sushi for dinner. Yummy. The next day we went shopping again! This time at Orchard Road (of course, how can anyone come to singapore n NOT go to orchard road) and we did more shopping! Bought a book at Borders, John bought some tshirts, had NYDC for lunch (mud pie! slurp), and basically we just did so many things i can't keep track. But, I didn't like it much cos all the female shopkeepers n all were hitting on him. Pfft... EXCUSE ME, did you NOT notice the girl dangling from his arm!? Pfft. Actually, I can't remember whether it was at City Hall or at Orchard. Hmm.... Then we went back to my place for dinner where he met my family. It was fun, and at night we went to Night Safari. It was really hot and got us all sweaty and sticky, but it was gorgeous. I loved it, and we had Ben n Jerries ice cream!!! :) We shared 3 scoops, the signature Choc Chip Cookie Dough, Phish Food and some brownie madness thingy.
Then this morning, we went for dimsum at Takashimaya with his mom and his aunt, then to the hotel then they left. Yep, they left just like that leaving me to take a cab home. I was so sad, the guy opening doors n all was like "Your friend ah? Be strong!!! Be strong ok!!" hehe... then I couldn't help it but burst out in the cab, and at the end of the trip the driver was like "Cheer up, k? I know you got problem...." i just nodded and got out of the taxi. Haha, like i'm gonna share my problems with you. I got home, and...
Crieedd, criieeedddd and criiieeeeddd.... then slept.
For 3 hours almost.
So i wouldn't feel his absence so bad, i guess.
p/s:
*Thank you, for coming to Singapore to see me. . Although we only saw each other for 2 days in total, I loved every single amazing second of it. I know I always tell you this, but I wish you didn't have to go back. Recent memories just play back over and over in my head, causing me even to cry sometimes. I really really miss having you around, when all I have to do is just reach over and feel your solid form, the security of your hand entangled with mine. I only can look forward to the next time that I get to see you, which is hopefully not too far away. So, to sum it all up, i wanna say:
Thank you. Thank you. And I Love you. Love you. Love you.
:):) aquarium!
just a random pic john took from my behind. - giordano
:) peekaboo!
my glasses!
me*megan
our white shoes turned fluorescent in the glow in the dark room!
me at night safari.
i love blurry pics for some reason.
love his hairrrrr....
My cousins, shaun n megan, john n i.
John n I at Esplanade.
John's Hair Transformation!
Sunday, July 02, 2006
From Sharon's Blog.
001. Name: Amanda
002. Nicknames: Mandy, Manda, Panda, plus all the *shush* names that you all dont wanna know about. ;)
003. Single or taken: Taken
004. Place of Birth: Subang Jaya
005. Zodiac Sign: pfft. no such thing.
006. Male or Female: Female.
007. Birthdate: 20th November 1988
008. School: Jurong Junior College
010. How many buddies on your list: ?
011. any aol/yahoo/msn: msn
___Your Appearance___
012. Hair Color: dark brown, almost black.
013. Hair Long or Short: relatively short.
014. Eye Color: dark brown, almost black, but lighter than my hair.
015. How do your nails look: they're semi-long, and with little remains of polish. i have no remover here in sg!
016. Height: short. i need some height!!!
017. Do you have a crush on someone: its an everlasting one ;)
018. Do you like yourself?: sometimes, sometimes not.
019. Braces?: no, never needed them.
020. Think your awesome?: !??! what a question.
021. Piercings: Ears only.
022. Tattoo: none.
023. Righty or Lefty: righty.
___Your 'Firsts'___
024. First surgery: none.
025. First piercing: On Deepavali 2003!
026. First best friend: This is tough... don't know who I should consider, oh well. Shaun!!
027. First Award: First Runner-Up for Toys'R'Us Beautiful Baby Contest! Hahahaha.
028. First Sport You Joined: Volleyball! I love volleyball. I'm still at it.
029. First pet: A white dog that I don't remember.
030. First vacation: First large scale one was New Zealand when i was 3. Can't remember it either.
031. First Concert: Linkin Park haha,
032. First love: :)
___Favorites___
033. Movie: So many... Wicker Park and De-Lovely.
034. TV Show: One Tree Hill!
035. Color(s): Pink, white.
036. Music: anything la.
037. Song: currently - In The Still Of The Night, Kevin Kline + Ashley Judd
038. Food: SUSHIIIII!!!!
039. Drink: Iced chocolate
040. Body parts: Eyes.
041: Fave place: John's house, i mean.. room, uhh.. i mean house. hehe. It's really nice!
042: Fave shoes: Wedges!
043. Brand Of Clothing: Haha, I buy everything within budget.
044. Fave Shop: anywhere i can get good bargains from
045. Fave School: My current one i guess.
046. Fave Animal(s): pigs!
047. Books: All kinds. I love books.
048. Magazines: Cleo and Seventeen.
___Currently___
049. Eating: Lime Mint Mentos.
051. Mood: Tired after doing my 1500 word GP Essay.
053. Listening to: Katharine McPhee... she has the most beautiful voice EVER.
055. Wanting To: See John. :) He's coming next weekend!!! :D
056. Watching: Nothing...
057. Wearing: Tshirt and boardies.
___Your Future___
058. Want Kids?: Yeah sure, I want mini mandys!
059. Want to Get Married? Of course.
060. Careers in Mind: Not sure la.
__Which is better with the Opposite Gender__
068. Lips or Eyes: ? Both i guess.
069. Hugs or Kisses: Im greedy, i want both.
070. Shorter or Taller: Hehe taller.
071. Outgoing or serious: Both!
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both! Can be the same thing.
074. Sensitive or Loud: Both. More sensitive than loud though.
075. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship. These questions bore me.
076. Sweet or Caring: Both! How can you not have one without the other?
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant one:.... Nope.
___Have you ever___
078. Kissed a Stranger: No way.
079. Drank bubbles: Does gas in coke count?
080. Lost glasses/contacts: Lost my contacts all the time! Not anymore though.
081. Ran Away From Home: No, but thought about it!
082. Broken a bone: Nopes, the closest thing i've broken is a nail!
083. Got an X-ray: Not really an Xray, it was a radiogram or something.
084. Broken Someone's Heart: I guess so.. :(
086. Turned Someone Down: Yeah.
087. Cried When Someone Died: Yeah of course.
087. Cried at school: Hehehe yeah.
___Do You Believe In___
089. God: Definitely.
090. Miracles: Yup..
091. Love at first sight: Well, attraction yes, love no. It takes time.
092. Ghosts: Yeah kinda.
093. Aliens: No hahhaaha.
095. Heaven: Yuppers!
096.Hell: Yeah.
098. Kissing on the First Date: No way. people take kissing way too lightly.
099. Angels: Yeapp.
___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There someone You Want But You Know
You Can't Have?: Hehe no... I have who i want to have. :)
